Project Girl Postponed

Unfortunately my work is a hotbed of infection and disease at the moment and just a few days ago I caught one, so project girl is on hold until I’m feeling a bit better. I did however model my new wrap dress (forgive the face cropping, no makeup!)

Still when I'm feeling better I'll have another go!

Wrap Dress: Ebay
Over Knee Boots: Love Label
Tights: Primani

Vlog: Important Announcement, Llama, Shopping and Fests

FT Plotting

Some thing I am considering with regard to Transness is to try full time girl, full time as it were. While I'm not ready to do so at work (though they all know, but knowing and doing are two different things), I do have a couple of weeks holiday towards the end of the month... If I do it expect daily updates!

Today I'm at the parents as my car is in for its MOT test. Hopefully it will pass, or at least not cost too much if it doesn't. At least this year I have some savings towards it, rather the bung it on the credit card approach of last year.

Oh and Lacuna Coil Tomorrow! *SQUEE*

*Edit: The Car has Passed!

A mixture of bad and good

Things haven't been going too well for me recently. There have been a few issues with work recently so I've been searching for something better with a renewed vigor. I did find something very similar to my previous job advertised on an agency website over the weekend so on Monday I dressed all smart boi* and went into see the agency. The job had already gone, but they reckon they could find me something, but I need to show them a passport (which was at the parents), so am going back today to register and see what they can do.

I returned home from work on Tuesday to find that the PC had stopped working again, it looks like the last fault was a hardware failure in progress and now the hard disk with all my photos and music is now little more then a shiny metal brick. On top of the recent things with work this proved a bit too much and left me bawling my eyes out. I decided it might be a good idea if I got out of the flat for a bit until I could calm down. So I rang my friend Vinnie as I knew he'd be around and his company was very much appreciated. On reflection, I've decided to abandon the PC for a bit, and will buy a new hard disk later this month and start rebuilding the music collection (mostly have stuff on CD), and as for the photos, well I still have my memories. Plus I have two shiny cameras and enjoy taking photos, I shall have to take many many more!

Yesterday wasn't entirely successful either, I had a contact lens fitting in town. All was going well until the optician took the lenses out. I'm not sure why but I went into shock, it took about 5 mins for my vision to return to clarity, and for me to stop sweating. The Optician did say that some people react that way the first time, and maybe to try again in a few months time. Plus he had fantastic music taste!

I've also had my two latest purchases arrive. A little black dress from ebay and some suede-ish thigh high pointy boots from Very. I figured they might give a bit more confidence in the boi/girlfriend hunt!

Not the best photo, I need a camera person (and probably shouldn't have used the phone cam!

*I should probably work on a girl suit, but as a part time trans type I do need to keep some boi stuff, not quite ready for full time.

Could be an interesting read

I must say that RuPaul's new book Workin' It!: Rupaul's Guide to Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Style looks rather interesting... definitely one that I'm going to have to acquire when I get the chance. I was rather addicted to the first series of Drag Race and was especially inspired by the divine Nina Flowers and am pleased to see that she is contributing.

I'll have to do a review when I get my copy.

Looking at the New Year

I'm now back in Exeter after a quiet Christmas with the family in Budleigh, though my break was short lived as I returned to work yesterday. Still I am looking forward to New Year's Eve and the Cosplay party, especially now my red wig has arrived. I'm going to have to try everything together in the next few days.

Speaking of the new year, and of resolutions, Next year I hope to achieve.:

• Be a Girl:
  I'm not meaning operations (yet), what I am aiming for is full time girl when not at work, doing family stuff or other things where it essential that I am boied. That follows on from last year's effort to be 'more glam more often'. With that being relatively successful, I think it might be worth taking up a gear.
  
• Less Coke:
  Cut back on my consumption of a certain brown fizzy drink.
  
• Get a Boi/Girlfriend:
  Pretty Obvious Really!
  
• One Photo per day:
  I plan to take a photo of something every day, whether it is an outfit, some scenery or just something I found interesting.
  
• Keep this blog alive:
  I plan to try and post semi regularly, hopefully a couple of posts each week.

So those are my plans for next year. Wish me luck...

Edit: I've also noticed that I've now passed 100 posts, pity the 100th post wasn't anything more interesting then a "Merry Christmas" but still cause for some celebration...

Impending Doom: The Film Party

Well a while ago I told some of my work colleagues about girl me, and now I’ve been invited to a party. The theme is film and I ummed and ahhed for a bit. It was then suggested to me that I go as Kate Beckensale’s character in the film Van Helsing. The outfit itself is no problem. I have a corset, trousers, boots and now hair. But I have to admit I’m bricking it!

I’m feeling much more confident about my other upcoming attempt at cosplay. For a Video Game themed new year’s party I’m going as Jesse from Pokemon’s Team Rocket. Lets just hope my cosplay is better then some of these.

Better then expected

Well the only comments I’ve had from people at work have been positive, wanting to know what the girl Facebook account was, and complimenting on the pictures that were posted. So as far as I know, all is good!

The new boots arrived last Monday (well OK I did include them in the last vlog) – they are fabulous! I now just have to solve my clash of the purples!

Out to work

Well I've stuck some of the girl pictures on the boi facebook, that is the one that I have a lot of people from work on - with a caption saying...

"I said I was being more open, though I suspect most of you knew I had a tendancy to dress as a glamourous dragdiva"

This is because I'm in a bit of a "Fuck it - I should be proud of who I am!" mood - after all I don't really consider myself a boi - but then I don't consider myself a girl either. I'm halfway up and halfway down. I sould be proud to be different, proud to unique and proud to be myself...

This might still bite me on the arse...

Being more open

Well I mentioned girlness on the boi Facebook (the one most of my work colleagues can see) so far there have been no comments :) Maybe they don't read it (too busy on FarmTown most probably) Still it has giving me quite a bit of Egoboo!

A Busy Weekend

I've had a fantastic weekend :)

Saturday I had to forgo the Pride workshop (probably a good thing) to pick my Gran up from the station and do family stuff

In the evening I glammed up in a short skirt, flame print pvc corset, new knee high boots* and a skinny top for Black Catz in Plymouth with Miss Dru. The club was very busy and I ended up dancing a lot with very pretty people. So much Egoboo! Finally got home about 5:15 :)

Its interesting to compare Plymouth clubbing with Exeter, In Plymouth the night has lots of publicity, is in a proper (albeit small) club in the city centre and is open up to 6am. The Exeter equivalent is a general metal night, in a Pub function room, a mile from the city centre, with limited promotion and it kicks out at midnight. I know Plymouth is bigger, but Catz is a niche Goth night - the Metal night is in C103 - using all of the huge three room club! I've seen smaller places do similar standards, even Truro (a fifth of the size of Exeter) had a monthly metal night in a proper club (till the venue went tits up)

Talking to a nice Transsexual lady on Saturday also yielding a very amusing piece of information. There is a monthly Tranny Club (not nightclub I hasten to add) at Clyst St George Village Hall. How Random!

On Sunday night I had a night of Wine and Wii. I'm starting to get a liking for Kirby…

 *The boots arn't that new, but I've not had a chance to wear them out until now

Child of the 80s

Well I must say that the Alternative 80s night was fabulous. Although I did get some hassle from a weirdo in a wheelchair. Some people seem to want me to justify myself, yes I am technically a guy, no I don’t want a full sex change, yes I am bisexual. Does any of this matter?! Still it was great to catch up with a few people I’d not seen for a while and to hear some good tunes!

Anyway there is going to be a distinct lack of glamour and indeed cleanliness (though I will be flannelling)  as I can’t use the shower for a day or so. I’m going to repaint the ceiling and need to let it dry out lest the paint starts peeling again!

I also need to sort out the PC, its been playing up of late. Two years does seem a long time for Vista to start developing problems. So I guess I’ll be using the Macs and Ubuntu for a bit.

VLOG: Episode 7 - Lurgified Incoherence

TVFail

Warning Very Scary

http://tvfail.blogspot.com/

Most of TVchix has had a sense of humour fail over it and is going to threaten blogspot over it. As someone who has appeared on similar sites in the past, you just have to laugh and let it sink. After all if you post images up on the net, its inevitable that B3ta/Something Awful might find them.

Edit: TVFail was taken down by Blogger some time yesterday evening...

Girlyboi does not equal Sissy.

Something that does annoy me quite a bit is the assumption that people who are fluid when it comes to gender (well from the male being more female side, this doesn’t really apply to FTMs) are all weak ‘Sissys’. Granted there are some Transvestites out there who dress as part of a submission fetish. They want to be forced to dress as a girl and therefore be ‘humiliated’ by the loss of their perceived masculine strengths. I used to encounter these a lot when I used Alt, they would ask for advice on how to dress. I’d then get complained at because it wasn’t humiliating. Unfortunately this seems to be the type that gets reported in the media most often. How many times do the Tabloids report with complete and utter disgust about someone who does not conform to the ‘rules’ of gender? Take as an example, an Army Officer is undergoing SRS. It’s a story that crops up every so often and every time the papers place a negative spin on it, with the subtext of ‘Look at this freak!’

What people seem to forget is that there are feminine strengths as well! It’s not a bad thing to be in touch with femininity. Not everyone is macho and some embrace their female side as it helps with creativity. Not every man in a dress is doing it for sexual kicks. I may dress differently from the average man, so what. I wear makeup, is that a problem? At least I have the guts to not follow the herd.

Here ends the rant!

Quiet yet Glam

I've had a quiet but enjoyable weekend off from work. I've been using the time to experiment with a couple of looks and to get more practiced with makeup and style.

I also had a play with the camera setup for the Vlog. I've ordered a proper tripod and will see what results I get with that. My current pocket one is not very good.



Yesterday I had a girly shopping trip with a friend, I didn't buy anything as I'm saving a bit at the moment (or at least trying to) but it was nice to have a social shopping trip, did get a few looks, but my ever increasing confidence means that they don't bother me any more!

Possibly Spotted

Someone in the office today was blabbing about a possible tranny they saw on the quay last night with much use of "I'm a LAYDEE" - I don't think they've twigged as to who said girlyboi might have been.

Oh well. Who has the bigger balls (figurativly speaking)?

Confidence and Egoboo (and a pub crawl too)

A letter arrived today confirming that I do indeed have an interview next week. Fingers are very much crossed. I'm not going to say any more in case I jinx it.

Last night, I went out on a normal night out en-femme. By normal I mean not Goth or Alternative or even Gay. It was also the first time some of my friends had met Sadie (though they knew about - I just hadn't been very glamourous because of circumstances). Town was very busy as it was late night shopping, this also meant that most of the pubs were busy too. The first pub we tried (The Angel) had an Open Mic and not fancying trying to talk over poetry we then moved on to The Ship. This wasn't too busy, but did contain the Postgraduate Physics dinner. As the physicist in our group didn't want to associate with drunken Russians we moved on again to try the City Gate. This turned out to be full of Carol singers. So finally we ended up at the White Hart where a good time was had. Pictures were taken and might get posted later.

All this meant I clocked up about two miles in heels, some of the terrain was a bit rough going with odd slopes, 'Blunkets' and poorly maintained pavement. To this end I have a nice blister on my toe!

All of my friends said that they'd like Sadie to come out more often. I think girl nights out will happen a lot more frequently from now on.

And as I haven't done a 'Today I am Wearing' for a bit last nights outfit was.

• Black Jeans
• Knee high boots
• Long sleeve top
• Pink and black hooded top
• Pinstripe Coat
• Leather Gloves
• Black Scarf
• Black knit beret style hat

It was rather cold - though at least not cold, wet and windy like tonight!

Tranny Style

What is it about a lot of trans types having no sense of style. Its rare to find them wearing anything that an actual girl would wear. There seem to be two extreme is the slutty look*, micro skirts, skyscraper heels and not much else, fine in a fetish club, not so good when out shopping. The other extreme is the exact opposite with a tendancy to the very old fashioned, taking styling cues from old ladies with twinsets etc.

I guess this comes from studying other transtypes rather then sitting in the High Stree or pubs and clubs for a bit and looking at what people (especially girls) wear. I guess being in a small city and leaning to the goth side meant I didn't encounter many trans types during the formuative years of my style.


*OK un the past I might have had a thing for slut boots*** and PVC - still I did keep it to the clubs.

**Again guilty, but more as Goth Fashion then TG

***And I still do so there